Hello beautiful souls,
Thank you for joining me on my journey.
I am grateful for everyone that is here to hear my story.
Starting my very first blog post with a touch of magic, let me share with you my spiritual journey.
”A magical adventure that helped me find strength, wisdom, knowledge, acceptance, awareness , compassion and love within myself in ways I'd never imagined possible”.
This journey taught me resilience. Given the adversities I faced, it allowed me to discover more about myself and what it truly meant to be following my heart.
Being able to now freely express myself beyond limitations, I hope that this blog entry will help inspire you to walk the path towards your heart's desires and find a life that you too can share and live without regrets.
Recollecting the very first memory I had when I was a child around the age of 8, I've always somehow knew & felt different from other people. Since young, I have always been known as the kid who always asks just too many questions, is too talkative and always has a mind of her own that others find either intimidating or weird that made that distances themselves from me.
And growing up in an asian culture, that didn’t go so well for me. I didn’t conform to the standards of being an obedient quiet child. Having a voice of my own often had me ended up being hit by my parents. I feared, but there was only so much I could do. I would often end up with scars I had to hide, blood I had to stop and even to the extent of being knocked out and having to be forced to forget it even happened.
So you see, life already wasn’t easy for me, let alone having “supernatural” gifts. *Laughs*
Being deemed as the weird one within family & friends, it was also equally hard to fit in during school days.
Hearing voices, seeing visions and spirits, did not help at all.
Because each time I had an encounter, being the spontaneous Serene, I would never fail to share them with people around me. I would even be prompted to relay messages for specific people, and look what happened, I scared people away. *Laughs*
I felt alone, outcasted, and I feel like I don’t belong anywhere.
I had this urge to hid the fact that I had gifts because I wanted to fit in. I just wanted friends.
Hiding was of no use, because people already knew. I was often name called. Words such as, evil, satanic, weirdo, black sleep, cursed one. Some even said that my abilities are ruining their lives. It hit me so hard that I started to hate myself. There were several times I thought about ending my life.
I felt like nobody understood me. I often scare my mother with what I saw and her having not knowing how to react, reached out to my grandfather who was a medium in Malaysia and was told I have psychic abilities & has the gift of sight. There was purpose for me in this life.
They started discussing if it would better to close my third eye, but knowing that it will re open years later, they did not proceed. I have no idea why, but I felt relieved when they didn’t go through with it.
Trust me, during then I felt cursed. It was never pleasant encountering spirits. Often times they look 10 times way scarier than in movies. They would either seek help for unfinished business or to cross over. It was so scary because, so often they would appear out of no where.
Yes, at first there were fears, I was afraid of what I saw, I never really understood what it was and why it happened to me, and WHY ME?
And because I so often relay messages intuitively to people around, I was told off by my friends and family to keep my mouth shut and stop being a busybody. Then and there was one of the main reasons I started to shut off from the world & my gifts.
Even though I felt alone, my world was never less colourful.
Through my lens, everyday I felt like I was living in a hologram. Every colour, object, people & surroundings, were enhanced, almost 4 dimensional.
Even though I was experiencing life in its most colourful form, a part of me wished I was normal.
I hid myself from the world, I refuse to go out. I became a little less bubbly, less talkative, and I just want to stay in my own bubble.
“It was never easy growing up in a conservative environment, being constantly talked down upon, shunned away and misunderstood just because you experience life differently”.
It wasn’t until the age of 12 when my father passed, that I slowly started to embraced this gift of mine and knew that it was a blessing.
My father was my main support, and my biggest fan of all. Throughout tough times, he never fails to bring a smile onto my face. He was the only one who understood my emotions & feelings. He was also my mothers pillar of support. I felt loved, cared for and cherished. On the very day that he was murdered, I lost all hope and I was left in despair.
On the very day when the gunman killed my dad, my world crumbled.
I felt useless. I blamed myself for I could have prevented it. There was nothing I could do. I was so vulnerable and I wish I left with my father.
Before the shooting happened, we had to be tied up and place in different rooms. I still remember my fathers last words, “if there is anything, Daddy will be the first one to shield you from it”.
And true enough, my dad took the bullets, and shield us from what was suppose to happen.
It was not long after we heard a series of gunshots being fired, the gunman entered the master room where me and mother was hiding. He pointed the gun on my head, and pulled the trigger.
A part of me wanted to disappear from this world. I wanted to go with my dad. It was then and there, I knew I had helped on the other side, I heard a voice saying “I’m here” and I felt wings protecting me and my mother and I could see rays of bright light coming through. My dad, and the angels saved us.
I had no idea how lucky I was, until the day the police said that, there was still a bullet in that very gun that took my dads life. This is where I started believing that I was divinely protected. I trusted that my dad was watching over us.
Though I lost a masculine figure and the greatest support I had in my life. My connection with the divine kept me going. It made me realise that my dad was still watching over me. And this was the first breakthrough in my spiritual journey that gave me strength and lit the very path towards honing my craft that gave birth to who I am today.
A part of me still felt lost. It was a tough journey healing from my dad’s death in an environment where no loved was shone. I made many mistakes in my early teens, channeling my energy in the wrong places in search for love. I ended up getting hurt. I got abused physically & sexually, I was used and toyed with. I fell do deep and I was In a very dark place.
It took me 10 years, before I was finally healed off my depression & the relationship traumas I experienced.
My connection with the divine saved me countless of times. Not being able to share them with others simply took a toll on me. I can’t simply just abandon it. Though I didn’t had much courage to fully pursue what my heart wants. But I promised myself, that one day I will.
~ So I followed my heart, and decided to embrace my spiritual side to help people who feel lost just like I did ~
During the past 11 years, I practiced my craft. From using poker cards, with no clues how they work, I realize I was able to receive messages that actually helped my through tough times.
While on the path of self-discovery, I’d always make it a point to get to know more people. But because of my fears of rejection, I find it hard to open up. There were times I tried to, but was condemned. Yet again, I was reminded by a fellow christian that my gifts were a curse.
But that did not stop me from building my knowledge and practice. I would spend my time alone learning about them from sources all around. During then I started giving my first reading when I was 17.
Throughout the years I have learned to embrace the gifts I had, though not many people knew what I did except my mother. It wasn’t until I went through my divorce that I was brave enough to take the necessary steps to follow my heart and not hide anymore. I declared that it was my breakthrough. I will no longer allow other peoples opinions to affect me and direct my life. I will live the life I want.
I will show the world who I am, and use my gifts & story to help more people.
And for some oh you who already knew, this was the start of Psychicmerrene. A crystal healing page that offers, Psychic Readings, & Crystals for those who would like to experience the magical energy that the universe has to offer.
And successfully, for the past 5 years, after a series of redefining my niche. I finally found my sole purpose and have helped and connected with thousands of people from around the world.
So this is me & my journey.
My name is Serene, I’m a Spiritual Relationship Coach, A 3rd Gen Psychic & Healer that specialise in Love & Relationship
who has been practicing Since 2010.
My sole life purpose now is to coach and guide others to finding the clarity, truth and inner peace that they seek.
For I believe The Universe always has our back and wants the best for us.
So allow me to guide you, for I will do my best as one of your messengers.
“Trust not just in me, but The Universe & yourself.”
You are never alone on your journey, nothing is too difficult if you are willing to try.
And like I always say:
"Impossible = I Am Possible"
Thank you so much everyone for taking time to read this blog entry.
I am looking forward to presenting you with more content filled with wisdom and knowledge to help inspire and guide you through your path to finding your sole purpose, and reconnect you with your hearts desires.
Blessings to all.
JourneywithSerene.